情来不挡，情去不记。

当我喜欢你时候，我改变了自己的生活，融入了你的习惯。我比你夜睡，我想看到你下网。你在玩着的游戏，虽然我不兴趣，但是我慢慢得开始去学习玩。平时我有 自己忙着的事情，但是开始与你接近，我渐渐得少理。突然间的某个时候，我觉得必不得已要离开你和遗忘你，我已经忘记以前我一路来平静时忙着自己的事情。每天同样的钟头，我会想起你。PS：纪念曾经喜欢过的柯宋颖 。

Because you thinking about her, you feel alone

Are you heard this idiom before, "Because you thinking about her, you feel alone!". This idiom can exactly describe my current feeling. I know what is impossible, but I am too stubborn. I still get know the news about her. In front of her, I never say anything. Although a simple say hello, I am not doing. This is a way I try to separate the distance from her. I trust we are impossible, I must do something to avoid from hurt myself again. The night is late, but I was still energy to think about her. I still remember how I know her. She is my foundation mate's roommate. Currently, she still that friend's roommate. Actually, not much memory I can find between how I know her because just a short term I knew her. First time, I get attract with her smile. Her smile is different. After I getting her deeply, I found that she is pretty nice. Unfortunately, she got boy friend that time. I just keep quite. I got the experience like a girl got boy friend before. That feeling is very suffer. So, I decided to leave it away. Once day, miracle coming. She broke up with her boy friend. I am the first person to know about this new. From facebook, I know it.  A chance is reach, but not easy, because I still got something need to worry. My experiences not enough for to get her heart. Something more disappointed is ........ I do not want say it any more. Time is the medicine to forget, I will live better tomorrow.

Boring Night with Inspiration

3:31 AM consider night, I think so. How I describe the night? The night is silent as well as my house-mates all went back hometown, just leave me alone. The noise in mind start, because is too silent, I can not adapt this situation. My mind is "slow motion", but why still thinking a lot of things. I prefer listen songs in case because I can not stop thinking when I am tired. The is state of depression. When patient is tired, he/she may negative thinking. I trust tonight is different because I am writing blog now. My full concentration on writing. Perhaps, I still thinking a lot of innocent. This song is coming, my favorite song, my spirit is in high mood. I could forget those sadness that happened so far, although not fully recover, is better not happen instantly a while in my mind. I just realized my friends who came back from "Yam Cha" in my hometown because his MSN is online mode  immediately. If I not stayed back at Setapak here for finish my assignment, I think I am one of them who just went to have a drink. They may think why I am not come back Seremban this week. For the reason, I need to finish assignment, but the real reason is I was really damn bad mood. I want to stay alone for remind back what happened and plan what I should to do. I saw her online in facebook. Although I do not sure my feeling whether is like this girl, but I still continue to get know news about her. I think should be like that better for me. 

Assignment in Progress

The few days is very different (Thursday, Friday, Saturday). Whole days I stay alone in my room. Actually I want finish my Communication Skill Assignment and Sun Zi Art of War Assignment, but I did not make it. I browsed facebook, played Mahjong at Viwawa, played Chinese Chess at games.yahoo.hk, watch Chinese Chess games in XiangQiClub. I found the source related to my assignment part, but it was too long article, I can not summarize. First read, I used my Opera's  speak function to read out the article. The NIKE inc. really a historical company. It's company history need spent 20 minutes to read through. Finally, I decided to use it as my source. Are you heard Atkins Nutritional inc.? I got the view it will be my assignment example of company practiced Sun Zi's concept, Momentum and Timing. The reason is the company background and history is short. I remember one of my foundation coursemate, Chen Chuan, he is enough pro doing assignment, I used his skill, not direct search information by search the title, but clever to search for company name. Is easier to find the company history, is hard to summarize, because need to figure out the useful part related to my title. In the truth, this few days I am not doing assignment, I was did without nothing. Say truthfully, I was release my stress and stabilize my feeling. I listen a lot song. The song of "feeling", it is compatible with my current feeling. 

12星座"怨夫"排行榜

相对于“怨妇”这个古董级的词汇，最近逐渐衍生出一个新词——怨夫。所谓怨夫，就是指那些埋怨多多的男人们，不论是对生活，对爱情还是对工作都有一大堆的不满和忧虑。星座男人们的怨夫指数不尽相同，怨夫表现也是花样层出，一起来看看吧！ 　　

        NO、1处女座　怨夫指数：◆◆◆◆◆

　　处女男最出名的就是挑剔了，不论是对自己还是别人，他们都热衷此道。他们小气、行为谨慎、唠唠叨叨、对人嘱咐再三而又不知疲倦……总之，不管从哪个方面看，都是一副“千古怨夫”的模样。当你遇上他：遇上如此这般的处女男，也算是你的造化。在他的点拨下，你会把自己变得更加完美（当然，这取决于你的容忍度），而且他们一旦定情，很少变心，是忠贞度很高的星座。 

　　NO、2天蝎座　怨夫指数：◆◆◆◆◇

　　天蝎男总是很在意自己的外表能给人多少好感，喜欢得到别人的称赞。当然，在他们的内心里也有些隐藏着的阴暗面，有着“毒舌男”的美誉。因为反应够快，加上一张不饶人的嘴巴，他们给人留下斤斤计较的印象，是典型的现代型怨夫。当你遇上他：与天蝎男的斗嘴有时会衍生为口水战，因此，除非你做好了反攻的准备，平时还是小心谨慎为妙。 

　　NO、3狮子座　怨夫指数：◆◆◆◆

　　狮子男表面上一副大男子主义，其实最容易因爱情而受伤的就是他们了。脆弱的时候那幽怨的眼神，见到谁都像是抓住救命稻草一般，死活拉着人家大谈自己哀伤缠绵的“恋爱史”，这种微妙痴恋，简直就是一个超级怨夫。当你遇上他：如果说平时威风凛凛的狮子男已经足以令你心跳不已，而脆弱时刻的他们就更容易让你为之动情，趁这个时候和他接近，让他发现你身上的优

　　NO、4巨蟹座　怨夫指数：◆◆◆◇

　　巨蟹男是无庸置疑的温柔男人，他们喜好浪漫，恋家又不失生活情调……一切看起来是那么完美又无懈可击，可是，一旦越过热恋期，进入实际的家庭生活，你就会发现身边的巨蟹男是一个不折不扣的怨夫。就像不停吐着泡泡的螃蟹，巨蟹男对另一半的关照和提醒，很容易被视为无聊无意义的唠叨。当你遇上他：遇上体贴的巨蟹男是一件幸福无比的事情，他会乐意为你安排好一切，你只要乖乖地坐在那里受他的照顾便是。

　　NO、5双鱼座　怨夫指数：◆◆◆

　　典型的双鱼男容易给人轻飘飘的感觉，好似悬浮于空中一般。他们温柔、儒雅，谈到感情的时候容易敏感；说到工作和学习的时候往往会对许多事情抱敌对态度，甚至会抱怨自己从一出生开始就不是李嘉诚的儿子，流露出怨夫特质。当你遇上他：和他就好像掉进了水里，也不知道你是水，还是水是你。其实，他只是缺点提示，你可以用自己的方式来引导他，给他适当的鼓励便可把他拉回现实生活中来。 

　　NO、6白羊座　怨夫指数：◆◆◇

　　不要以为白羊男们总是一幅精神饱满的样子，其实他们的怨念指数也不小哦！了解羊羊的人都知道，与其说他们是怨夫，不如说是“愤青”来的更加贴切。他们迫切想要成就事情的急躁情绪容易导致不时的头脑发热和鲁莽，加上直肠子的个性，很容易把所有的不满情绪一下子倾倒出来，因此常常被冠以“暴躁”二字。当你遇上他：如果你爱上白羊男，不必担心，他们的个性其实很像小孩子，只要适时用些甜言蜜语来安慰他便可。 

　　NO、7金牛座　怨夫指数：◆◆

　　牛牛们大部分是动作多于言语的行动派人士，他们致力于工作和学习，因此用以抱怨的时间也相应地缩短。虽然他们极少抱怨，但是并不代表他们不会记住一些让他们不太舒服的事情，而这些事情还会清晰地存在于牛牛的记忆中。在金牛男变成老爷爷后的生活中，会有时间搬出这些事情来好好抱怨一番。当你遇上他：跟金牛男在一起的日子是幸福的，你可以完全地充当一个小女人，但是记住，凡事应该多站在他的立场上想想，为他提供一个舒适的空间休息。 

　　NO、8双子座　怨夫指数：◆◆

　　机灵的双子男成为怨夫的可能性比较小，他们往往是社交场上的好手，懂得恰当的措辞和行动。而且，他们通常表现出来的大度也是由内而外的，并没有太多的伪善成份。即使心中有了一丝埋怨，双子男也能够马上用自己的高情商来处理掉不快的情绪。他们极少的埋怨可能来自于自身对事物持有的怀疑态度，因为他们除了自己很少会相信其他人。当你遇上他：和双子男的恋爱就像一场惊心动魄的游戏，你必须时刻保持清醒的头脑，或者，就干脆做一个善良而直率的小迷糊吧！

A broken promise

Is a broken promise for myself...
I swear my everything happened is a secret of my life. I don't hope anyone know about it because it break my sense of self respect. I do not like someone give sympathy on me. If really got a need of help, I trust I could find out solution. I had a promise with myself, I will not write any about my feeling in my blog. Finally, i break my promise. In case, today is different day, I was several attack by my state of depression. I feel is the time to distinct my real situation. Something not going tell is heart problem for me. After I wrote on my blog, I relax a lot. Who will I wrote this? I don't show my blog address to my friends. Laugh of loudly, I am still keep my secret from my friends. Who will random view my blog only know.

Think who is my friend

Is my feeling too strong or in reality my friends around treat me different? The way I treat my friends is different. I go through her/his attitude before I recognize he/she be a friend. I prefer to get know a friend by a special way, one man by one man, in more details mean, I know someone deeply before I going through another person. Until today, I haven't know my whole coursemates, but I make clear all of them attitude.  Just because depression, sometimes I become very quite. I totally different from normal day. My attitude is weird a bit for prevent other know my state of illness. I admit is a wrong solution to face this problem. From reference to cure depression, I should let my friends know my illness. Normally, I seldom talk in front considered normal friends. In the delight day, my mood is 100% open, I talked so much. My friends suspect I was a faker. In the truth, I am not. If friendship is a part of life, my true friends is everything of my life rather than relationship of love.